Haiz, Mothers.......

Just had another argument with my mom.. Over somth ridiculous..
Well, i wdnt deny that the tone i usually use on her is rather inappropriate for a daughter to use on her mom.. but It just comes out that way.. Even if i'm not scolding her, i would speak really loud.. It just comes out naturally..

Well, for me if u talk to me nicely ur tone is aite i wd feel weird to talk with a loud and not soft toned voice towards u.. Like for example Debbie, i would feel weird if i were to talk to her screamingly cuz she's so soft-spoken and she talked to me nicely.. But for the guys, aiyah we can argue and scream at each other like nobody's business even if we're not fighting my tone is rather harsh.. It just comes out naturally..

Like for my dad also since we barely talk, it is rather rare for him to talk to me in a not soft-spoken way.. So it is rather weird if i were talk to him in a harsh tone..

For my mom, woah i dunno hw to say it.. She keeps complaining that i everytime scold her shout at her.. Well, it comes out naturally.. So i gave her an example.. Her alibi is she has a loud voice when she screams like mad woman.. So i told her lah, in her case its like that.. same goes for me, i just speak loud..

Then she say i can do that cuz she's the mom... What kind of logic is that?! When she talks to me its like she's talking to a dog.. Just cuz she's my mom i hv to make her an xception?? I mean if i can help it, i think it is the right thing to do.. But for me it just comes out naturally.. When u talk to me like u talking to a d0g liddat its ok.. then me, if i unconsciously talk to u liddat even wen i dont mean to scold it is not okay..

Y not u start not talking to me like i'm a piece of shit then u see where it goes.. I wd naturally feel awkward to talk to u in my comfortable way of speaking.. I would definitely hold my tongue..

My explanation is rather complicated so i dnt blame u if u dnt get wat i mean.. I'm just so pissed!!

It doesnt mean that u're a mother, u get the right to treat people anyhow u wish.. And when u treat ppl in that way dont expect the opposite..

I just dont get it when ppl say, but she's the mother, u're the daughter.. Just because u're a mother the expected moral u shd have is stripped away from u..? To all the mothers out there, if u want to be respected, try to respect and understand ur child first before xpecting too much..

I'm not saying that u cant discipline them, u shd pamper them, let them do wat they want.. U can still carry on with ur job as a mom in disciplining ur child, just bear in mind that they're humans with feelings and they deserved to be treated like humans should be.. They may be created through you but they're not ur property..

You do have the right to show them wat's wrong and right, there's a way to it.. Just do it the right way, dont make ur children hate u for the wrong reasons.. Which is impossible, ur children will never hate u no matter how much u make their life suck to the core, behind the rebellious self and portraying their dislikes and hatred there's always that unconditional love they have towards u even if they never wanna show it or realize it.. trust me, it's there even when they "think" they dont feel it..

Well, i'm not here to give parenting lessons.. Just wanna share my thoughts as a daughter.. I also cant assure u i'm gonna be world #1 mom when i become one.. I just hope that i wont let my children feel the way that i feel.. I'm thankful i have to go through this, an experience to gain for me to be a better person in the future..

Ooo, i just thot of a random question.. How can u rate ur mom the #1 mom, i mean she's definitely ur ONLY mom.. So it is rather biased so i dont believe there's such thing called the best MOM award.. Even if ur mom is the worst mom ever she'd have to be the best cuz she's the only mom u can and will ever have..

Anywhoose, i just felt better after posting up this post.. ahhhhhhhhh peace out!