Oh god, it's been quite some time since i've blogged.. Aww, i miss my blog.. Yes, i got my internet back.. Thanx daddy!! haha Wow, it's 2 am.. who gives a shit, i wanna blog. i've been blog deprived ever since my internet was shut off..

You see, i do kno that some people out there are reading my blog.. I can tell by the counters people.. Thank you so much for reading, but it wd be nicer if u actually tell me that u read and comment on some stuffs, so that it doesnt seem like i'm talking to myself.. haha I dont wanna seem insane.

Well, i think it's rather too late for that. I am sorta insane in some ways.. Gosh talking about insanity.. I think my obsession over Junsu is getting rather too much.. God, my heart skips a beat when i just think about him, i skip a breath everytime his voice reaches my sense of hearing. And when i'm just sitting down in the bus suddenly the thought of him runs through my mind and i just smiled or laughed to myself.. ahh, embarrassing if people noticed you know.. It may seem like i'm some glam insane person in the bus.. Haha, i just called myself glam.. wat?? i'm vain and i know that.. hahah

Ooo, today was a hectic depressing day.. I have briefing that starts at 2 and supposed to have a meeting right after it but God, the briefing plus planning took forever.. It ended at about 6.40pm++.. And i've already scheduled my P5 speech slot at Tampines West.. Which leads back to the issue of my obsession over Junsu for the past week the only thing tat has been in my mind is him.. I just couldnt find anything else to talk about but him.. God, i'm totally gg-fied..

just look at him!!

He even looks insanely hot when he's sweaty and all!!!

I managed to craft the speech halfway a few days ago.. Then i thought, hmm maybe this topic is not that suitable to the objective of P5.. Then i was like how? ah die!! die!!! how?? I stayed up quite late last night trying to figure out wat i should talk about and the only one that's on my mind is him.. Aiyo, i'll skip the boring part of my indecisiveness and just skip to the part where i almost had to start a whole topic from scratch where i ended up with only one sentence... Then getting back to Junsu.. Yup, so my speech at an external club where there are adults is about a teenage obsession of an idol!! zzzzzz

OMG, haha i was just flying over the top babbling away about how much i so adore him.. hahah But i'm glad my speech didnt turn out so bad after all, i had nice comments from my evaluator and the respond was positive.. Just that as usual, in my lack of preparation of speech, i'd miss out my important points.. Haha i gt distracted by the kid who entered the room when i was speaking and the lady infront of me, right under my nose was closing her eyes.. And as usual, u kno me, i'm so self conscious i thot i was boring her to death, so there was a lil distraction.. but wen i looked at other people, they were so attentive haha so i got back my spirit.. You guys were great audience, oo when you guys smiled haha it added to my comfort upfront..

I'm always asking myself why dont i ever get a chance to never do a last minute thing.. It's not that i want to do everything last minute, it is stressful!! I did try to start a job, work, duty earlier i'll end up staring at the blank piece of paper for some good hours.. It just doesnt wanna come out with smth productive when i start earlier.. But wen it's last minute, everything fall to places but not perfect there are some tat would fall out off the place.. I believed that my speech would have been soooo much better if my preparation was more thorough!!

Is it that difficult to start on smthing not in the last minute?? Please lah, i dont wanna give myself excuses... I myself wonder wat is up with the last minute thing?! ugh watever lah... it has to stop sooner or later.. But i just dunno how? advise needed people!! please??