Last night when i was tossing and turning on my bed b4 i fell asleep.. Suddenly smthng crossed my mind. On Friday, we had a national day themed Toastmasters chapter meeting the question tat was asked during intro was wat do u like abt Singapore/wat are u most proud abt Singapore. My answer was, the fact that i can get out of it and get back in.

It sounds as if i hate this country.. I dont i dnt have anythng against Singapore. I love this country i do. There's so much great things abt Singapore tat i cd think of during tat point of time. But i didnt. So, on my bed just tossing and turning wondering why is it that i dont fancy staying here. Then i managed to get an answer. My heart, mind and soul is not here. Well ever since the beginning of this sem, i've lost my focus. I'm here, but i'm not really here. well, just before this sem, i went to KL during the sem break. Maybe kephren is right, i need my break as in a real break. The only way is to go to KL and just chill there let the steam off and when i found that serenity tat i found there. I might be able to get back on track.

As i mention my heart, mind and soul is not here. My heart, mind and soul is everywhere but here. Picture this, my bestest best friend is all the way in Houston. My massive celeb obsession is all the way is S.Korea. The dude i'm crunching on, is in KL. My baby gurl, is in KL. My sistah, is in Canada. My other sistah from another motha is in Paris. My brotha frm anotha motha is in Africa. Wat do i hv here to live for? my family, yea yea... watever.

My dream living condition, is no where close here. U see why i really wanna get out of here? Singapore is not tat i dont love you, i do. Just that bring all the ppl i mentioned here and my family move them elsewhere. hah, then i'd wanna stay here. Heyy dont get me wrong, it's nt that i dont love my family just that i need some space. I need a break from them. it's just wat i need.

Haiz, oh wells.. Let's talk abt smthng else. When i woke up this morning, i decide to sms him. Well, he didnt sms me last month, maybe i shd sms him first. Not wanting to sound desperate. Just tat he shd kno tat i do think abt him. oh watever, it's just a kind gesture, ok.. Yah, i managed to gather all the courage i need and get rid of all the ego that i hv. so i sms him. But till now, no replies.. haha oh well, i tried.

So wat m i doin now? partially doin up the brochure. the other thing is, do some drawing for Wei Jun. check it out..
That's JaeJoong, Wei Jun and Yunho. Unlike me, she's into Jae and Yunho. I'm into Junsu and Yunho, just that Junsu is my one and only, Yunho comes in second. Oh God, just thnking bout him my heart is beating faster. Damn! I'm so in love with him.


I hope i got it right this time.. Even tho i'm majorly massively obsessed abt xiah, i aint no obsessed abt korean language like some people.. I just love him ahhh