Nur Syarafina{♥}
Also known as Fina or Syara.
18
This is my current single status.
My declaration of independence.
Simply live in
MacPherson Singapore
First cry was on
November 26 `90
Once a
PRIMARY,
SECONDARY;
Officially in Temasek POLY(IIT):
Life Story
What do u want me to tell u abt me? Well, I'm a Singaporean..
Born in Singapore, stayed there for about umm the first 10 years of my life..
Went to Primary School at Madrasah Al-Irsyad.. The most sian sch i've ever
been to..
Then i was shipped to KL to go to some stupid school, International Islamic
School from smtime in the end Nov 2000 till July 2004(abt there)..
But it turned out to be the best school that i've ever been to.. Well, mostly
because of the ppl there.. haha with all the trouble we make.. getting grounded
in the hostel, being sent to discipline master like God knows how many times,
flooding the school, getting kicked out from class, cold wars, hot wars haha
sooo much fun
Then I was asked to come back to this tiny sunny zzzzz island, Singapore..
Start going to Secondary school called MacPherson Secondary School, supposed
to join the sec 3s but ended up in Sec 2.. zzz repeat another year of 8th grade..
Well, here.. Not much excitement, bz studying and changing boyfriends haha..
Did my 'O' levels and now here I am, in Temasek Polytechnic doing Diploma
in Information Technology.. Hmm, not much drama.. Just bz trying to keep up
among the smart ppl.. Joining watever fun activities the school offers.. Well,
currently in my 2nd year.. Yea, sophomore baybeh!! Since its current.. I
suppose this paragraph shall expand in time to come..
10:23 PM
Monday, June 29, 2009
Early morning today, i already draft out in my mind wat i wanna blog about. I wanted to blog abt the things i notice abt my mom. Her reactions, the way she handles situation, her attitude hmm sorta like watever i can actually notice abt her.
However, i've decided to post on tat sm other time. To post tat, i wd need more observations and unbiased assumptions and diagnosis of her psychological side.
So i think it'd b better if i blog abt wat happens in sch today. I got to school just in time to get my breakfast and things were ok. There were 2 hour tutorials one was DSAG and the other was OOAD. Followed by a solid 2-hour DSAG lab.
Then 8 of us had to meet our CP, he asked us to join some sorta event organized by PA for some i dunno technology thinggy. Digital smthng2 or i dunno.. My classmates already planned to go for movies today. Since last week, i dont intend to go. No mood and sorta short in cash. And plus i ald said yes to allowing kephren to use my lappy. so accompanied him do DSAG assignment. Then he has to go for movies wit sm1. So i was left with Renga, boring.. He was doing his work..
Until i jio him L4D. haha tat's where the fun begins.. We played 2 rounds of L4D Haha and every round Renga just has to die at the midst of a rescue. haha It was rather fun i wd say. We got chased out of DSAG lab as they say it was closing so we moved to the blk 3 lab, then the dude came to the lab and was like, U TWO AGAIN.. Well, the blk 3 lab closes at 9 unlike the other labs.. We played sui sui ended at 850+ so we weren't chased out by the dude. Along the way home, i kept making the Boomer puking sounds. haha it was fun.
Hmm, wat did i miss out? i thnk so far nothing yet. I shall add on laterz, cuz i feel rather hungry. Gonna go hunt for food.. CHAUL
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12:20 AM
I'm so proud of myself and praise to God for it. My blogskin may be a rip off from blogskins.com, but i am 100% guaranteed that the person who designed it wdnt recognized its hers. I'm nt tryna say hers is bad. I just customize it sooo much to my style that it dsnt quite actually look like hers..
Basically, hers looks like this
See, i totally customized it and made it mine. But she deserves the credit for givin the headstart. I played around with her design to make it look like wat it currently looks like. I have nothing against red but during the times where my blog was sorta red i wasnt comfortable wit it. It suited her broken heart theme. But stories of my life that i wish to share are at times sweet and i hv a fetish with pink so i made it pink. Yay me! And i didnt quite like the arrangement of the things in her design so i changed the positions of the things. So hope u guys like it and wd appreciate it.
And once again, credits to the original designer and i hope she doesnt mind i played around with her design tho.
11:37 PM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
As u can hear, there's some element of musique in my blog now. I just added them just now, not that i'm noob enuff to just found out how to do so just now. Just tat i cdnt find the right song and imeem was bein such a * it plays only bits of the song. So i was considering to use mixpod cuz it's wat's recommended by most ppl.
So yea, u wd noticed i've decided it wd b mixpod and duhh who else?!
TVXQ!!
I love them to the max, and XIAH wd always be number 1! Anywhoose, tho i'm abit bummed wit the music thinggy cuz it takes such a long time to load. So the song is keeps getting cut every a teenie seconds which makes the beuatiful song totally annoying.. Is it cuz it's video? Well, to find song only it was rather hard. Maybe i'd play around wit the thinggy and see how to make it better.
I was looking forward to watch the english version of My Sassy Girl, ever since last month. Cuz i loved the korean version so much. It's like one of the best movies! I even set my alarm to go off at 9pm cuz i wanted to watch it so bad. Well, it turned out ok.
The storyline was basiacally the same there were differences here and there and the english version just seem rather dry. Not as awesome as the korean version i wd say. Oh wells, the effort was acceptable. Hmm, for now i dnt hv nething to blog about. So i shall anounce farewell for now.
7:27 PM
I was supposed to sleep right after my post last nite, or shd i say this morning? It was about 2 am. Then i was just looking around at my blog and i wanted a few changes to it. I'm just so fickle minded, i cannot be satisfied at the same thing for like even in a short while. It has been like almost a week not even a week yet, i have changed the blog structure for like countless times.
Then i realised maybe i stopped updating my previous blog cuz i was rather bored of the blog layout. Maybe? at least i thnk so.. Now that i'm on blogger, i can like change the layouts like as many times as i want. Yea, so u can notice like there are a few changes to the layout.
I changed the slides of my photos from using slides to photobucket, I find the slides theme nicer cuz its like strip-like. It suits more to be the header. Cuz i wanted my photos as header intead of my photos being at the side. It's just more me-ish, haha vanity is my biggest sin.
I also changed the position of my archives, it's just more logical to be at the bottom. I cd go on and on xplaining why but i just chose not to.
Right, lets get to how's my day today. As usual, woke up late almost noon. Today is like the most slack day. Watched tv like the whole day and just stuck my ass to the couch. Then had lunch, continued with the tv and all the boring slack stuffs.
There's something up with me like these few days. I'm not really a chocolate fanatic, but these past few days i've been having cravings for chocolates. Everytime i get to the kitchen i have to have a bite of the chocolate. Usually if we were to buy chocolates, it wd like rot in the fridge.
Today, i heard a really nice song on MTV No surprise by Daughtry. I find the band quite cool and wanna get the whole album but i cant seem to find it anywhere. The album is called Leave This Town. Haiz, i just lost the mood to blog. My mum is like blablablabla-ing so i'm losing it. Therefore, i shall stop now. I thnk i'll add on laterz
2:08 AM
Alright, i just blogged like about an hour ago. I just suddenly had the urge to blog again and i dunno why. I was just bloghopping jz now then the sudden urge just filled in.
My bro is like snoring away and i was supposed to be sleeping ald. But i just wanna blog. Well, i'm feeling rather anxious about next week or shall i say tomorrow(monday)? Our term test results wd be out, the anxiety is killing me. And i'm wondering how come i dnt hv anythng to rush on? Am i missing a particular deadline or smth? It's rather surprising.
Since, i dnt hv anythng in particular to blog about. I shal just stop now..
Hmm, i was thinking of trying to start a conversation wit tat dude first, umm randomly smtime.. i wann see how the situation wd b like.. Not awkward i hope.
12:28 AM
From earlier today i wanted to blog but havn't seem to get the perfect timing.
Well, early morning my mom is already screamin off wake up breakfast is ready blablabla. My bro askin me to pass my lappy, he wants to borrow it. Unconsciously i passed it over and my mom continued talkin and talking to him blablabla, i cant be bothered to look at the time. My mom was asking "hey, smelly.. y r u sleeping there" then my bro was like why is she sleeping liddat.
Well i was too lazy to climb the ladder up to my bed, i'd hv to carry the fan up to my bed. So i just decided to sleep on the two seater couch. It wasnt comfortable, but it was convenient. I cdnt b bothered to answer the comments.. Yea, my mom keeps tellin us to eat, my bro is like i'm not hungry yet, blablabla. and i still cnt be bothered i continued to sleep..
ooo, then my stomach growled. So i went to my mum's room cuddled nx to her and lay down on her bed.. She was playin wit my puffy hair and i was like .."oo, hungry" She was on the fon so i went to the kitchen, oo there were half boiled eggs soy sauce, um sausages.. Yea, so i had my breakfast.. Chilled at my space checked my fon for messages or wat..
Oo, messages from pong. Apparently he was coming over to my house to send the bbq stuffs. I just like u kno woke up and hvnt showered and all bacin. So i told him to just knock on the door and my bro wd get it.
So i continued chillin at my space, staring at the crooked shelf that i drilled to the wall. Did some arrangements, drilled the power extention to the wall, put up decorations on the shelf and just slacked. Well, after my bro left. My mum was sorta asleep.
My mum woke up, she cooked and was makin so much noise, i cdnt b bothered i wasnt really payin attention. Then she left. So i was like blasting off TVXQ on my speakers watch them dance woah wat a way to spend ur weekend. Watch a few episodes of Jon and Kate plus 8 season 3. Then did some of the stuffs my mum asked to do b4 she left.
So i was just chatting wit my fren. Talkin about u kno the dude i was talking abt earlier.
SUDDENLY MY EX-BF SMS-ED ME!
Way to go to kill the ambience dude! Out of the blues he just texted me sayin he's sorry and all that, he let me down blablabla all those *pathetic shit*
him: sorry if i hv hurt ur feelings, i hv no intention on hurting u. i kno my mistake, i'm really sorry
me: ?
him: fina, too many sins and wrong i've done u. I let u dwn to many times.. i hope u can forgive me. let's just say i was startled, i got smth from Him(God) forgive me, u..
me: wat is this? u din do anything wrong to me.. I'm fine livin this way.. cnt u jz accept it and let it go??
him: i guess its wat i dserve.. if u dun mind, i wan us to b frens again, lyk we used to be..
me:i dont mind us bein frens as long as u dnt bug me wit tat kind of shit again.. i hv many othr things to b bothered abt i dnt nid u to add on to it..
him: fine with me.. go do wat u hav to.. Gd nyt..
Woah, my heart like burning sia. I just wished i cd slam the phone. I was so irritated. I mean like, we broke up not cuz of how he's treating me. It's just cuz of how i feel abt the relationship and he just keeps bugging me abt all those crap.. I'm sick and tired of it. Cnt he just let it go? It's irritating maybe tat's one of the reasons i fell outta him. He's rather, umm how to say it. Like tat. When we were together, he goes like oo, i had a dream abt u, we were like this blablabla then he get paranoid and smtimes it bugs me.
Oh wells, glad things are over. Hope the bugging wd be too. oo its 1 am.. i didnt realise. haha is it cuz i woke up at noon? haha Actually there was smth i wanted to blog abt but i kinda forgot. I thnk maybe tomorrow i'll rmb, then i'll blog abt it, aite.. tat's it for not..
8:48 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thank God it's Friday!!
Friday is usually the best day of the week, i dont hv to wake up early to head to school,I just go to school for a pathetic 2 hour lesson which wd usually end earlier. And usually go for toastmasters at night. Since there's no chapter meeting tonight, i just head home and help my mom to set up the house cuz my bro is booking out today and he needs a proper space to rest.
I woke up a lil late today. I was supposed to wake up at least at 12 in order to get to school in time. but, i woke up like about 1230. I managed to get to school just in time but ofcourse with an empty growling stomach. And stupid business school's sandwich vending machine, it was not working it ate my 80cts lucky it was 80cts only.. if it was more i'll kick the hell outta that machine. decided to just proceed to class and stupid business school elevator is screwed up, it goes *taet* even when there's room for more ppl. So had to wait for the next one and the next one. Still i managed to get to class just in time.
The class was ok, i didnt print tutorial notes cuz the printer was screwed up yesterday. it ended early, then i went to business school's canteen at maggie goreng at the canteen then just straight went home.
Well, i got home.. Wanna clean up my space but it seems tat i'm lacking of space to put the things all in order. Yea, so i took out the drill and get the wooden planks that's been hanging around in my house for quite smtime and the brackets that my mom bought from Ikea God knows how long ago.
You asking wat i took out all those things for? Aiyo, TO DRILL SHELVES TO THE WALL LAH! Hmm, was it expected? haha I may be the princess of the house but I AM ALSO THE MAN OF THE HOUSE!! haha it sounds so awful. I may have a man in the house but when it comes to MEN'S JOB, it's done by me. I fixed my own double deck bed, i drill shelves to the wall umm wat else do it do? haha. I basically fix things in the house.
I managed to drill the right side bracket, ooo it fitted perfectly.. ahh i'm so proud of myself, i actually said it out loud.. my mum was like, u cannot liddat, proud is not a good attitude blablabla. So i was like, noo i'm not proud saying tat i'm all that. I'm just proud in a happy way. She was like still, its not good blablabla..
Well, guess wat? she was right.. the other side of the bracket decide to sulk at me. It went senget and the top hole was loose so it was not that intact. Haiz.. i was like apologizing to it.. I guess not only human have feelings, other things have feelings too.
But still, i'm happy for myself that i managed to drill the shelf to the wall, even though its rather crooked. Oh wells, that's about it for now.
1:15 AM
As i mentioned in my post yesterday, i hope today wont get ugly.
Well guess wat, it's a total opposite of ugly today. Great things actually happened!
Except for the morning part of the day, it was boring assed lecture OOAD and DSAG, at least DSAG not too bad. Well i slept in the LT and snored haha, rather embarassing but i cdnt care less like the guys dunno that i snore when i sleep haha But it was still a lil bit embarassing.
Went for lunch at KFCs and the day was goin on norma. Then we had DBSY solid 3 hours lab. Well, there were mini grp project discussion. Then just slacking around. My fon was in the terminal i was initially sitting on. But i was like all the way to the other side from it. Then my fren told me i had a message. I asked from who and she said some unknown number so i asked her to read it out.. And the message was from...
Umm, actualy i think i oughta tell from the beginning how i knew that person
Hmm, i had a trip to KL smtime in April during my previous sem break. I went to stay with my fren. Well, there was this particular day where her hubby and his fren took us out. Well to me, his fren is umm.. a very nice person.. I wdnt say hot or hunky cute, bt he's alright.. Well, not tat impt tho.
So we went out and all blablabla.. Wen i was goin back to singapore, i didnt manage to say gdbye to him and the rest of my other friends. So wen i got home, i decided to text every1 sayin tat i'm safely home and thank them for the great wonderful company. I even text my fren's hubby. But obviously, i didnt text the dude(his fren) cuz i didnt hv his number. But out of the blues, i received a message apparently it was from him. Thanking me for my kindness, which up till now, i dunno wat kindness he was refering to. and he also said tat he hoped i enjoyed my days back there.
Well ofcourse me, being all humble and thankful all i said no.. thank you for the blablabla all those u kno.. cuz he brought us around and all..thn blablabla all those thanking stuffs then i didnt hear anythng frm him. and he was like u're welcome, see ya. So i thot he just wanna like tryna b nice and all..
Until like a month later, like last month. i was actually feeling rather emo. Woke up late and was rather late to sch, my fren keeps texting me irritating me wit some dumb question and i'm like sitting down in the bus, so sleepy. then suddenly my hp beep, i thot it was my fren again, bt the fact it, it wasnt.. it was him
asking how i was and all and asked whthr i rmb him and all.. then he was like wish u good and happy kinda thang. haha, perfect timing!!
I was emo and he text me wishin gd things for me.. Haha, he really made my day tat day!
Yea, i replied him like ofcourse, how can i forget him and like i'm doin fine how is he and all.. So he replied sayin its good tat i still rnb him and sayin tat things there are so far so good and again wishing me good and happy always and take care.. haha hmm thn i do not hear anything from him anymore..
UNTILL TODAY!!
Yup he text me, well back to the story at the lab.
Yah so my fren read the message to me, i thot she was just teasing me. Cuz like last month when we he texted me i was like blushing the whole day and was yah sorta happy haha confused at the same time. This time round the message was rather awkward.
He said tat he's in makkah now and he'll miss me take care.. He said he'll FRIGGIN MISS ME!! It was confusing, awkward and amazing and mixed feelings kinda thing. Well i didnt kno what to reply, cuz he might've sent it to the wrong person tho. but i dunno.. well i replied.. i said ooh? u take care too.. haha wat do u xpect me to say?? and he replied..
him: sure.. wish you health and good luck take care
me: 4 u too.. btw, wat r u doing in makkah? holidays or u complete ur studies ald?
him: holidays.. i want to come back to malaysia but i dunno when
me: Ooh, i wish to go back to malaysia too.. i miss it there
him: me too.. wish to see you there good luck take care
me: yea me too. u take care too
Aite, so that was the conversation we had earlier today. a lil awkward but its aite. haha i thnk the next i'll hear of him wd be sometime in july haha.
So that was the awesome thing tat happened during lab.. Another awesome thing happened in the lecture.. We were supposed to have a 2 hour DBSY lecture but it lasted for like an hour only haha.. cool huh..
Me and Renga chilled in the lab while waiting for our beloved kephren to end lessons.. I managed to camwhored abit in the lab.. here are some..
I agree, i do camwhore like nobody's business..
Then after that, i hung out with the 2 indian bois of my life.. haha we chilled like frm 5 plus up to like 10pm.. haha shared emotional shit together... camwhored like helll.. well, stay tuned for the pic updates.. haha the power to the gedegah is back on track conquering the grounds of TP..
11:54 PM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
And i thought the emofication was over..
Alright something is not right about me for these past few days. I'm getting emofied for the slightest reasons. I'm just so emo and sensitive over little things. I was feeling as if i just want to throw anything that's in my sight. I just dont feel good i feel like screaming punching whoever that talks to me and worse killing the person tat actually piss me off with the things that i'm usually fine with in other times.
I thought the main cause of my emofication was the report submission deadline..
I just feel out of my league, no mood to talk to any1. In a split second i feel like laughing and laughing like i'm insane, and the next second i feel like crying or wants to beat the hell out of some1. It's bad, it sounds really bad. The worse part is i didnt kno wat's the cause of it, until just now when i was sitting down thinking about my malfunctioned attitude.
As i was sitting down thinking, i finally figured out the source of my emofication. I just realised that sometimes this might happen around this period of the month.
I tend to find fault at everything, sensitive over the things that i usually could care any less about. If u still dont get it, u can ask me urself. Well, this is the period where u can actually succeed in pissing me off, making me cry and see the other side of me where u'd never imagine.
Usually, ill get lucky cuz no1 wd trigger it. But this time round so many ppl are just grating on my nerves!! Some people just dont think when they open their mouth. Just because ppl are ok with it, there is actually a limit. During normal times i may get offended but i couldn't care less but i dont tolerate it when i'm being emofied.
PLEASE DONT PISS ME OFF!
So people, pardon my attitude and i'm serious i mean it i'm practically pissed of at anything or should i say everything, so butt out and dont piss me off u may hate me for it. I dont expect u to understand cuz understanding is just smthng my life is lacking off and i'm already used to it.
UGHHH!!! I'M STILL SO PISSED i dunno at what tho.
Oh wells, i hope things doesnt get ugly tomorrow.
3:40 PM
Emofication over!!
Oh wells, as u know yesterday i was rather emofied due to the report submission thing. I was abit pissed off at somethings but nahh i choose not to mention it. I'll just leave it as it is cuz it's over, nothing more or less can be done about it.
Well, i felt rather bad while my emofication mode was on i accidently slammed at my friend. OOPS, sorry i didnt mean to. I was just bummed, but we're ok already tho.
I managed to submit the report in time, i ran to business school ryte after the teacher said we could proceed to the nx class.. And if u do not kno i just so hate business school (no offense) the structure is like wat the hell.. So difficult to find the thinggy.. At this level the staircase is here then the next level, the staircase is dunno where. zzzzz
One thing cool tho, business sch temperature taking is the walkin in the camera thinggy and can detect the temperature.. Hmm, it's much faster.
Alright report submission well, at least i managed to. However i think the report suck big time. And i have confidence that the results are gonna suck
Oh wells, that's all the school stuff..
OOO MY MUM WENT TO COURT TODAY!!
Wat other case do u thnk? haha yah so just now she called, my dad wanted to talk to me. Yah, so i talked to him. He was like my birthday u didnt call me or sent me a card. blablabla when asked does he know wen is mine, He went like i only know it was on 1989.. WTS?! i wasnt born then, i was born in 1990 for goodness sake!! zzzzzzz its bad enuf he didnt get the date right.. HE EVEN GOT THE YEAR WRONG!!
Oh wells, i'm actually having the longest break ever. from 12pm, 6 hours b4 my next lecture so now i'mm just slacking. Had a lil meeting with Mr President, so now i'mma go get food and chill in the lab with them bois.. chaul!
9:47 PM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Is back home from AGM already. Well, i think the AGM was great i wonder why alot of ppl didnt turn up. Ohya, AGM is also where the IITSC sub-committees would actually get the cert which actually turned out to be an empty envelope, haha.. I'm sure there's a reason behind it, but it was funny haha
The performances were entertaining, woo there was chinese orchestra cool huh. As i mentioned earlier i have a report to get down to tonight. So my post shall be brief. I'm actually putting up an emo mode now. I dunno why i just had the urge to be emo since i step in the house, i dont feel like talking to any1 ryte now..
Btw, as usual i express my craze for TVXQ and singing like nobody's business.. Hmm I actually recorded this singing of mine, well pardon me.. I'm not Mariah Carey, dont expect too much and plus, pardon the sound effects i cant be bothered to buy a mic, i just use the in-built one in my lappy.. So the sound might be a lil off.. So here it goes..
Hope to be getting comments, i accept both kinds good and bad.. But if its bad, dont hate.. Pardon me i aint Mariah Carey..
TVXQ for all time, CHEERS!
3:54 PM
Sitting in the lab, lessons have ended awaiting AGM.. What more can i do?
Oh wells, AGM or would say Annual General Meeting for the IITSC thinggy starts at 5:30. My classmates jio me L4D.. At first, ON AHH!! But now, i suddenly didnt feel like playing, I have smth to worry abt
SINGAPORE LAW REPORT SUBMISSION!!
The deadline is tomorrow and yah, i'm not done yet not even close to done
Must be wondering y the hell am i blogging instead of getting on with the report? Oh wells, the softcopy of my not even half done work is in my lappy at home.. Hahas so i cant get to it.
Now, just listening to TVXQ singing and just blogging away. What to blog about, i hvnt quite figured out..
*WOAH~~~ XIAH'S high note is up*
Ahhh, i'm just so in love with him.. So addicted to him I cant get enough of him, his voice, his dance, his face, his ahhh EVERYTHING i think in my next entry i'm gonna talk about my massive celebrity crushes.. You guys can then see how crazy i am about them. But the first on my list would be my all-time one and only XIAH JUNSU!! ahh
People are like asking me, "Hey Fina, u're malay y u nt crazy over some malay artist?" haha I dunno, i just find Xiah a WOW icon!! And so far, no1 beats him. Even though at times I agree that people may not see him as the most good looking or what.. But to me, he's the HOTTEST, CUTEST, SEXIEST dude i've ever crushed on.. hahah
I'm looking forward to what's gonna be happening in the AGM.. I think tat's it for now. I dont have much to say anymore.
11:44 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
I suppose i should give an explanation of my current single status. If you have been following my life, i was actually happily in a stable relationship just months ago. Just the usual relationship problems, not that of any fatal ones that would actually cause relationship failure.
Ever since i entered poly, my life is a lil different.. I wont say a lil, i'll say alot..
I am over trying everything that's out there. No more fooling around with life, time for a change there's nothing you can get out of doing things that other people see as wrong. My perspective of life has finally changed, maybe.. At least i think so..
Well, poly life is not the same as secondary school life. The workload is different, the slack is different, the friends are different it is just a total new experience. So i'm usually either too busy getting my hands down on the works or busy having too much fun.
It is rather obvious that i barely hang out or go on a date with my ex-bf(when we were together) ever since i entered poly.. I just spend lesser time with him
It took me quite a while to realize that my feelings for him has actually fade
Was it love or just lust?
I even had a thought running through my head saying hey, when was the last time i was single and what is the longest time i have actually been single and free ever since the day i understood what being in a relationship is like.
Secondary school days was like 1 bf after the other or at times more than 1 at the same time. My relationship with him wasn't initially built on mutual love, i said yes just for the fun of it and he asked me well, for i'm not too sure wat reason. Well the feelings actually grew in the process of the relationship(or did it?)
There are times that i actually doubt my feelings and his sometimes
Well, our relationship was actually the longest relationship i've ever had. Almost 2 years.. The last longest relationship tat i actually had previously was 1 mnth plus almost 2 mnths bt never reached. I was excited when we passed the 2 mnth benchmark.
How we broke up was rather complicated. As i made it complicated, i doubted my feelings and i dont feel comfortable around him anymore. Everytime i hear of him or see him, there is this irritating feeling and i just wish i could drive him away. So i told him, that i thought it wd be better if we took a time off apart. It was abt a mnth or so of the time off, he then called and wanted to clear things out. Which is when we officially broke up sometime in march i thnk.
So there you go.
This is my single status, my declaration of independene
There's no chance i'm trading places, YEAH!
I wanted to feel how it's like to be single again
to be able to drool over hot celebrities without people getting jealous
to be able to check out guys without having guilty conscious
this might sound a lil vain but
TO GIVE THE GUYS WHO HAS A CRUSH ON ME A CHANCE
haha
This post can actually be longer but it's pass 1 am and i dont wanna blabber too much if there is a request i might actually elaborate on the part tat is requested haha but i doubt so..
That's ot for now, i suppose
8:37 PM
As mentioned, finally i am done with the constructive works that is needed for my blog.. Well, even though the layout is not originally made by me but i did alot of changes to the layout to make it satisfactorily mine hahaz.. As I already have a previous blog and I am too lazy to import every single thing here, I just posted a link of my previous blog at the side.
I hope to faithfully update my blog this time round as I have not been updating my previous blog like seriously.. Which is not good, as I have alot of events happened in my life that my blog missed. I'm hoping I can pick up where i left off in this blog.
As for now, I shall take my leave..
6:07 PM
Oh wells, welcome all to my brand new blog.. Hmm, i'm in the process of constructing it.. And also shifting the contents of my previous blogs here.. For now, it's just constructive works.. Would add on the real stuffs in times to come..
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WISHES
GENIE,oh genie,come to me ! :D
You have no excuse to not know what
to get me for my birthday!
Not Yet Fufilled!
{♥}Junsu to kno i exist & am madly in love wit him!
{♥}SHOPPING SPREE!!
{♥}Xiah Junsu's collectibles from comic connection
{♥}Chanel Mascara+eyeliner set
{♥}M.A.C concealer & lipgloss
{♥}Bobbi Brown Brush set
{♥}iPOD TOUCH!32GB preferred<33
{♥}Guinea pig(Peruvian/Abyssinian Breed) or Bunny No red eyes please!
{♥}Motorola Milestone!!
{♥}Skullcandy TI Pink Fur Headphones
{♥}Holiday in KL for more than a week
{♥}A new external HDD 1TB prefered
{♥}Nintendo Wii
{♥}The hot VAIO desktop!
{♥}Get a driver's license
{♥}Spend few days in The Royal Hawaiian Hotel (ahh PINK!!)
{♥}Get out of Singapore
{♥}Have my own room, better yet house
{♥}Have a freakin job that drowns me with money
{♥}Happily married with 2 kids
{♥}All the above coming true
Fufilled!
Some Junsu collectibles -icoulddoformore-
Have a pink Digital Camera
Pink MP3
New phone - OMNIA Pro
A cordless phone, like finally
Have a bad ass stereo system
Notebook cooler thinggy
Being single again
Holiday in KL 4 a week
My brother off to NS
This section shall expand once i'm more appreciative with my life!